You ever stress yourself out to the point that life is one giant tension knot in your shoulders? Well that is how I have been for months.

I am sticking this out into the world via my blog 'cause I hate to call my friends and vent to them. I feel like a burden and I know that they all have their own problems and mine seem so minor to most of theirs.

It started Spring semester when I got a poor grade in one of my classes. Plain and simple I did not study well enough, or I forgot how to study and my brain can't do memory work anymore. I got a C+ in art of all things. I got to a port where I did not care, I wanted to show for class and that was it. The tests were stupid, they were more about the psychology or art than about having enriching art activities for elementary age children. The tests read like a security profile quiz.

The kids are out of regular school. They both are in summer school, mostly so they don't get board while I am in summer class also. That has not stopped them from asking me to do something everyday and it usually costs money. I have been trying to at least take them to the Y so they can swim or work out.

The hubby was gone for 4+ weeks right before my school ended in May. Now this week he and the son are gone to Boy Scout camp for the week, so it's me and the girl and our animals.

I have an Algebra class this summer, which is kicking my you know what. I do great on the on-line homework because I have information to look at the reminds me or walks me through the steps to solve the equation. But the Quiz's and the test - forget it! I just can't remember the steps! I feel like such an idiot and that makes me feel awful. Then I come home and see the dirty dishes, the mountain of laundry and messy house and then I feel guilty for not taking care of everyone and everything. Like right now the daughter is yelling for me to share or do something for her.

there is is much more and in a nut shell, I have made my life stressful and I can't do Algebra and perhaps I am too stupid to learn or relearn anything and should just give up on what I thought I wanted in a career - teaching. It would be so much easier to quit and have no goals.