Today was one of the worse emotional days I have had in WEEKS!  I started crying on the way to the Dermatologist and kept crying.  Rhia didn't accept No for an answer a few days ago or today when I told her we were not going to the mall with her friends, that she and Alex had eye appointments.  That little girl of mine wants what she wants regardless, stresses me out to no end. 

Well the Dermatologist said the two spots that were not healing are not cancer spots. Thank you God and Jesus!  So she 'doctored' them up and sent me on my way.  The Eye Doctor is again ordering new lenses for my new glasses.  The first set of lenses were measured and set using a broken machine so well perhaps that is why the first lenses were wrong!?  And ready for this, the ditsy technician thought she was using the broken one.    Very nice woman, but not the sharpest tool in the shed sometimes I am told. 

So the visit with the kids to the Eye doctor went like this, new glasses for both of them, new contacts for Rhia and a maxed out charge card for mom.  Thank goodness we have insurance because the bill was $550+ for them alone.  John goes on Saturday.  Oh Joy.

And Hurray! John is coming home for a visit fro New Years weekend.  I can not wait and neither can the kids.

Now why am I so weepy and sad and angry a lot? 

Well let's see, I have teenagers to raise that want what they want, regular teenagers.  I have a husband that lives 8 hours away and we see each other one weekend a month on average, before he moved he was going to Omaha to work and help out and got overtime, since he moved the overtime has been almost nill.  Out financial status is now very healthy, I am probably going through pre or peri menopause, I am not sleeping well and my house is always a mess and needs a lot of repair.  I have to stop seeing the negative and see the positive, I am not sure how to do that anymore.  I have to relearn that.  I worry about everything all the time and never get anything completed except complain and vent and cry. 

So crappiola to me.

Thanks for looking and sorry for my continue venting.  I know it is a broken record that needs to stop playing.  Believe me I KNOW!