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No I am not talking about maids in the house.  I wish!

Christmas is coming very fast and Santa is skinny this year on presents.  The kids and John will each get something but that will probably be it.  I am fairly sure that will be it.  Money wise this year has been not so rewarding.  Little dog chewed up my foot control cord for my sewing machine and it will be 3 weeks and $100+ for a new one.  I don't knit that fast or crochet.  John will be lucky to get the scarf he asked for by the time he comes home for New Years. Two things I want for Christmas is to pass Algebra with a C or better and new house shoes (little dog helped their destruction along. 

My Internet has been dropping periodically for two to three days.  Just spent the last 30 minutes with charter having them tell me it is nothing wrong with their service.  So maybe it's the router.  If it is I hope the kids like NOT getting on the Internet for a while.  they won't. 

I was going to write Christmas letters but I am way too angry to write anything positive right now.  And I keep getting angrier and angrier knowing that the DH biological mom sent him a Christmas card (he lives in NE remember) yet the kids and I have not received a card.  She never did like me and told me on more than one occasion that our marriage would not work out.  Guess this is her way of saying told you so.  Yes I am an oversensitive fat bitch and a failure so I guess you are right!!!!!! 

Glad I know what a nervous breakdown feels like (thank you ex-husband for that experience!) because right now I am just very stressed.  Roof is still leaking some since Dad and Alex got up there to caulk the problem spot, little dog is eating things that he should not (1 sewing machine foot control cord and 1 laptop power cord, shoes, a step, broom handles......)

I used to say the amount of time John was gone for work made me a single mom.  Well......  Now the kids are teenagers and they both don't want to constantly help around the house.  They help, but sometimes it is not at all or near enough.  Like school.  I will be surprised if they both pass this semester.  Alex wants to hide form everyone at school because of the bullying and Rhia wants it all to be a giant social time. 

My house if filthy, neither of them keep their rooms clean.  It is a fight to have them do dishes or laundry, and usually I have to rewash everything since they don't put it away and the clean stuff gets piled into a mound and falls to the floor.  It is cold and yucky here.  The bathroom needs to be redone, new walls, new plumbing new tile, probably new floor too.  the kitchen floor looks like white trash, the "commercial" vinyl tiles are all cracked and broken, the hard wood in the rest of the house needs A LOT of work.

I could keep venting but it makes me want to cry, and cry and cry. 

How well do you think a yard sale in the dead of winter would work?