When I started blogging I wanted to make this page something that I could share happy things, pictures, my creative writing, my craft projects, etc.  I wanted it to be a happy place.  Well I have been able to do is post the crap, the things that are wrong and make me sad.  So I appologize, I hope someday I can put up happy things again.

I am trying to work on my school work right now.  But it's not working very well.  I have 3 discussion topics to answer, 3 to respond to, a reflection journal to write, a lesson paper and lesson to prepare to teach to my piers, books to read, chapters to read.........

I am finding it very hard to focus. 

Last Sunday a dear friend of mine passed away in her sleep.  She had sleep-apnea and was disabled and on disability.   She went to take a nap and did not wake up.  Her 14 year old son is the one that found her.  When I found out I was in such disbelief that I called her cell phone to see if she would answer. Her family has no money for a funeral but another friend of her's has talked to her church and her minister is going to donate herself and the church so we can have a memorial for Annette sometime in October.  Yes I have already offered my help. 

By Thursday one of the daughters friends was told by his grandmother he had to move out by Sunday.  Moving in with his mom is not an option, that is why he moved in with his grand.  He broke down and asked John and I if he could move in here till high school is done (he's a senior).  We were not going to offer, he had to ask and no we do not have a problem with it.  He works part time, goes to school at the High School and Tech School and is in night school two nights a week so he can graduate as a senior on time.  He is a good kid and has had a rough childhood, he has experienced more than most adults could handle.  So...

I have a convention to get ready for, which I am not ready for. 
I put the socks down again and am working on a present for friends. 
I would like to get a costume sewn for next weekend too. 

The son and daughter have been very uncooperative lately and always whining and talking back. 
I got upset (felt sorry for myself) this afternoon when I got an email from a friend that she is probably moving to Hawaii for a job.  I am VERY happy for her, it has been one of her dreams to get a job in the media field (tv, movies, etc....)  and I am very happy for her. 

So here I am feeling sorry for myself,  with lots to do still.