Accomplishments and set backs.

I know that they are a fact of life and a daily happening.  My accomplishments have been minor but my set backs have been huge, to me that is.  I feel like the song lyric, one step forward and two steps back.  I finished a knit hat for a friends baby, it's a crown.  I finished two ear-flap hats that still need to have the mohawk part added to them for the DS and DD.  I am still working on my pink lace socks.  Now I am looking for knit or crochet patterns to make gloves for all 3 of the kids, I have some eco-wool I want to use.  It is bulky and warm and will work up fast.

I still have all the things I took to Archon to sort and clean up from two weekends ago.  Just don't have the time to resort and organize it because I need to clean and reorganize the basement to get everything back where I would like it.  I still have patrol flags to make for the BS Troop.  They need them by Thursday night, they go camping this weekend and need them for the events.

Now our finances are beyond bad.  I have to go to the bank and see if they can help me, and I am getting phone calls from a financial institution for a family member that doesn't even live in the state.  I am trying to be very calm about this all, but I don't know how much more I can handle.  I owe my parents money from last year, our account is overdrafted two of the DH's paychecks worth, (that does not include the overdraft fees).  And now I have to take the car into the shop this morning.  Plus everything I have told you before what needs to be repaired around the house still needs to be repaired.  The DH works all the time, whenever overtime is offered but this last month it just wasn't enough.

I did not get the time to study for midterms like I wish I did and I got a D on my last big math test and dropped my grade to a C.  I don't have the results from the other classes yet.  I also did not get my intern paperwork in on time so I may not be able to do my internship next semester like I need to.  If I can't get pushed into an internship someplace when all my paperwork gets back to me it will put my graduation off by a semester.

You know when I was young I expected that by the time I was this old I would have everything under control and life would be fun and smooth.  I always thought that was what it should be, like my parents and grandparents.  I guess they were real good at keeping reality from me.  That was not fair, so here I am almost 51, in college like a 20 something, in debt and over extended with bank fees, and a disappointment to my children and parents.  Just a regular day in my life.