I have been busy being a home-mom. I still don't have anything under control. Can't pay the bills on time, can't keep the family on a budget. Have not figured out how to get my own time. And I guess I still have the big come use me sign on over my head.

My neighbors ask for help and support, but when they get together my family and I are not included.

My family makes plans to do dinners and such, and oops forgot to call you.

My sister got a new job and I am so happy for her, I prayed she would. They have more money problems than we do. Since she got a job that means that I get my nephew back, and I love him and don't want anyone else to watch him. But that means I have even more limitations on me.

Things have not changed for me in 44+ years. I am still here to care for everyone that is near me. I can not be perfect and I am not. But still they keep coming, keeping asking and keep not taking no for an answer.

I really get a pain in the center of my soul. I would like to know that I am loved and not just around for others to use.