I think what is

I think what is wrong with me for no one to love me.

My therapist says it is the programming I still have in my brain and emotions from birth on.  It seems to me I do not know much about my own life.

I see people that are either happy with someone to share their life with or they are happy to live alone.
I do not see others living what I live or what I feel.

Crushing emotional and psychological pain creeps in during the quiet times.

My depression causes my pain and my pain causes my depression.  A complete circle of craziness occurs when I can not tell it to go away.

So many people say you don't need someone else to make you happy and complete.  I agree, I am happy and complete without that 24/7/365 person in my touching distance.  I really am, but to know the reality is that no one wants to even wants me to be that for them is what gets me to cry.