So what is yours?
I don't know if I have resolutions, but I do have some things I used to do that were good and made my life more happy that I would like to start up again. I lost those things as I slowly gave my life up to the person I loved and devoted myself to. Now that person has been gone, left, I still feel the same guilt for looking out for my needs and my children's needs. The negative things are so much harder to get rid of than it is to begin new and positive habits.
What I did that was good: care for my health, keep interest in my hobbies, keep the laundry caught up, same with the dishes done daily, go to a movie without guilt, go out to dinner and get waited on every couple of weeks, close the door and read a book without someone stopping me, getting my home repaired by me or someone when I can afford it, go on a trip, go for a walk or a hike and take pictures.
I may love the ex still so very much, but I could not do a lot of things without feeling guilty or made to feel guilty for doing those things. Yes, I love him still, he was the love of my life for 25 years, and no I can't see myself getting that involved again. The Universe will have to really get me a better person with a stronger fit for me to get interested again. With that said, I shall go on about resolutions.
I resolve to; get my health back, conquer my fears and depression and anxiety, calculate and fulfill my financial needs, fight my fear of success, stop thinking I am so stupid and unlovable, clear out the un-needed items in my house. Those are just for starters. I don't want to lie and say I am going to go out on dates or look to meet new people. I am not there yet. I could never be.
So, what are your resolutions for yourself?
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