It's been a week. I have had the time to post, I just have not.

This last week has been from one extreme to the other. I and my family has been so busy we cant' breathe to having not a thing to do at all. My littlest has been sick and missed a day and a half of school. Our packs Pinewood Derby was this week too. I picked up the track, 40 feet of it. Got it to school and held my sons head as he got ill in the parking lot. I don't think I could even explain about that night with out venting and whining and getting mad. Why you ask, plain, the cub master was to be in charge of this, well he did screw the track together and apart and did run the heats with one of our tiger dads. I guess I am upset because I had no idea what I was doing and that really bothers me to be put in that position.

Cub master, if you read this, you did a great job at running the race and I thank you very much for loading my truck!! I was very on edge with a a sick kid and having to pick up the track at the last minute.

We had Girl Scouts this week too. I am starting to like this year of GS's. I am just a parent co/leader. Unless my friend who is the head leader asks me to do something, all I have to do is get my daughter there and hand around. This is nice.

My writers group got together last Thursday. We get together once a month, schmooze each other, pick apart the work of one or two of us - all in love. Laugh, gossip make a date for the next month.

Thursday (last night) was an event at school. The husband took the daughter and a neighbor girl. I stayed home with the sick one.

Had a panic and could do nothing about it. Our taxes came out of our bank account before I expected it to, so we ran with a negative balance for two days. I had no money anywhere to more to the checking to cover the negative. Oh' well. Nothing I could do. So the bank got money out of me. I hate not having control of something simple as my bank accounts. It would have been a lot worse had I not sold some things on eBay last week. Since we made the choice for me not to go back to work after loosing my job in February 2004 there has been money stress, but our personal stress is so much less. The kids are happier and so is the husband. Sometimes I am not. I get depressed and don't even do the dishes or the laundry. I feel like, what is the use, if I am not bringing in cash to the house I am not worth anything.

Well after working since I was 14, and I will be 44 in February 2005, it's kind of a state of mind habit that is difficult to get out of.

Have to go now. Mommy stuff to do!! :-)

One last thought for this post.

The sun will shine
the moon will rise
the tide will turn
the river will flow
the earth will rotate
the moment is now
as it was yesterday
and as it will be tomorrow.