Next surgery date is set.

I had my surgeon appointment today.  She has set my next surgery for Tuesday, September 24, 2013.

I do need to see the original surgeon again next week so she can assess the hernia I received during the ER surgery that she did to save my life.  Yes the sore muscle pain I have been having from day one of recovery is a hernia and a fairly big one.  As I understand it, if she feels that the hernia surgery can wait for some months then I wait.  BUT, if she feels it can't then I will be opened up completely again and the take down (putting my separated parts of my colon back together), but if she feels it cal wait, then....  You know what I am just going to explain it all like this:

Best case scenario is;
Surgery is able to be done laparoscopic, completely
I spend 3 to 7 days in the hospital
I am not able to work for that hospital week and the next week
I will be able to resume normal duties by the end of October
Hernia will be worked on at a future time

Not the best case scenario is;
Surgery can not be done laparoscopic and I am opened up just like before
I will be in the hospital a minimum of 7 days
I will have a wound vac and restricted from everything for another 3 months average
a temporary organic hernia mesh is put in at that time (it has a 100% fail rate within 5 years)
when the organic mesh fails I have surgery again for the hernia (either scenario the hernia will be worked on)

Complications for either;
I leak from the colon again at the sutures (requiring another surgery to repair)
I scar too much internally in the colon and need to be 'opened up'
Enough colon has and will be removed that I will not be able to control my bowel movements ( I have already had 8 to 12 inches removed I think)  Doctor says that my body will get used to this and hopefully change to a normal sensation


What I am afraid of;
I stopped breathing the first time twice, not waking up this time
I have no control of my bowel movements and I can't teach much less work
Once I get control of my body I can't find a teaching job or other work (our $ is sick too)

The whole unknown.
Being alone.
 
On another front
I have subbed 3 1/2 days so far this school year, school has been in session about 3-4 weeks.  
I am working on some crochet baby costumes for a friend that is starting her own photography company.
I had a yard sale and gave away a lot of gently used things.
I have ripped about 100 minimum music Cd's into my computer (John was usually the one to store them all on his computer and well, If I can get them all on my computer and backed up then they just may go $1 each in the next yard sale or eBay)
My cell phone stopped, just stopped.  Might have something to do with it hurtling across a four foot distance and meeting a solid surface with some force.  So I have a new cell phone.  I had the last one for 4 or more years and it was free with a new contract.  This one was not, :(
I am afraid to check Alex's grades, I have already received a negative email from a teacher about his cell phone use during class time.  So he does not have his phone right now.  
I had someone ask me to make them some bracelets for her and her children.  I asked for design ideas and I was told that I should make it how I want, my work is wonderful, and her are the colors.  Well I found out that this person did not like what I made and it was not what they wanted at all.  They still have to tell me personally that they are not happy, I had to hear it through someone else, but that person I heard it from is a chronic lair.  
I still spend a lot of time on the computer and watching TV, a habit I need to break.  
The toilet was clogged today, so before I left for the surgeon appointment I had to unclog it.  Found a soda straw in it, you know a regular go to a fast food joint and get a straw for your soda, one of those.  
I still have not replaced the pipes under the kitchen sink.  I have the pipes, but after I squished it all back together a week ago it hasn't leaked.  I am keeping the new supplies just in case. 
One of my mother-in-laws has been going through chemo since January or February and now that the cancer is in remission she is doing through dialysis.  She has such a positive spirit, I admire her so much. 
The other mother-in-law has a horrible experience with two of her siblings.  Their mother passed and the two sisters did not tell her or any of their other siblings (I think there is 7 of them in total).  You have no idea how angry I was!  I still am, that is just wrong.  She is now in the process of moving closer to her youngest son and away from the area that she lives now.  She doesn't want to live near us, the winters are too hard on her and the other son lives in Okinawa, way too far away from my hubby and her youngest and the six grandchildren here in the states. 
My sister that lives close to me, her father-in-law passed away at 84 two weeks ago.  Even though he was not in good health it was not expected.  But he always told my sister and her husband (his son) that there was no way in hell he was going into a nursing home.  Well he was being transferred from the hospital to a long term rehabilitation nursing home.  Despite all the sadness and pain of loosing him my brother-in-law kept his humor about him and said, 'Well Dad got his way, he won't be going to a nursing home.'  It was a beautiful service for him too.  The weather was perfect and an Army Escort of two came to grave site to play taps, this soldiers playing was so heart striking and magical I can not begin to describe how beautiful and moving it was, and to present my brother-in-law and his sister with the casket flag.  The deceased was in the Korean War.  
I think that is all for now.

Did I tell you that I was rambling on to keep from cleaning my desk?  Yep, papers stacked to the bottom of the monitor.  I don't think I have cleaned it since 2011 some time.  I was busy!!!!