Friendly strangers

I was just repeatedly complimented by a lovely woman that is celebrating her 17th wedding anniversary with her husband.  She is so very happy and so full of compliments to me and so very happy from alcohol.

We just spent the last hour talking and she praising me.  I don't get it.  I don't feel like anything but for no reason they came into the bar/restaurant that I am in and sat next to me and she just started talking to me unconditionally.

She saw me on my laptop and wanted to know what I was doing.  I let her read the other post on a different blog I wrote, since this one was not done and is full of compliments about her, and still she kept talking with me.

She and her husband bought me a drink and I  bought them pretzels.  She was very happy from 3 long Island Ice teas and he was very happy from being out with the woman he loves and has loved and devoted himself to for the past 17 years.  I am utterly happy with them being happy and wished them all the happiness in the world.  He had to drag her out of the bar to keep going down the street to celebrate some more.  He so loves her.  Took her and her three children in and accepted them as his own and they have two of their own.  He has been devoted to her all this time.  I wish I had that.

But I have me, just me.  It get lonely with just me.  I am a very needy person sometimes and even me is not enough for me.

This couple I wish nothing but beautiful fairytale happiness for.  She came oiut of a horrible first marriage, worse than what I have gone through, and deserves a loving devoted man by her side to support her and their children.  I wish nothing but peace for him as he does what he loves and loves his family for the now and the future.  He is extra special in the world or marital manliness.

I cried tonight telling the big parts of my life to them as they asked and they cried for me too. I cried for the beauty they have in their lives as a couple and a family. This could be all I have, what I have now, no partner and some sometimes friends and a lot of lonely night out alone or home alone.  I want my children to have more and ten times more than I ever had on the happiness wheel. I want nothing less for them, ten times ten more the happiness I have ever or could ever experience. They deserve that.
Me, well I deserve what the Universe, Odin, God, Ursa, Gia, whomever wants to give me. I ask for a lot but never know if I will or should ever get it.

to the Rush couple that I met tonight and made me cry and feel love from strangers, God love you and bless you and your children for all your line to come.  You are beautiful and wonderful people and deserve it.  Goddess Love you all :)