Peace

Is peace attainable?

Sometimes I don't think it is, then other times I feel I have found it.

In my life I have been brought up believing that you must be peaceful and calm all the time.  That if you are not, that if you get angry, that if you cry because something has upset you, you are a failure.  You don't have control over your emotions or your thoughts or your world.

I am 55 and this thought pattern of being peaceful and putting your needs and happiness last has controlled my life.  It has scared me deeply. Psychologically, emotionally and physically.  Probably on a higher plane too.  I can't ignore it, it comes in to upset me everyday.  Sometimes I think I can be at peace by not being at peace.

I would like to be confident, at peace and consumed with love again.

Peace please come to me with all the good and joy that can come with it.